Update on my Life

So first of all, I know it has been longer than forever since my last post but there is a good reason, kind of. I haven't really been doing anything...at all. My life lately has revolved around church related things and hanging out with missionaries, if that doesn't tell you something about how boring my life has become, let me tell you. Usually I go out, party a bit, hang with friends BUT since all my friends decided to leave me, I'm alone. Going out by myself is never fun but here it definitely isn't fun, especially when even when I'm out with people I get harassed and sexually assaulted by gross European men. Now, I though American guys were tools but they look like perfect gentlemen compare to European men.

Now on to the church topic, I have a love hate relationship with church. A very strong one. While I generally do like the feeling of happiness I do get when going, I also have a strong urge that is ingrained into me to be rebellious. I don't like following rules and I like to do my own thing but, as I have realized in the past, that never really works out for me. Ever. It is like when everyone else got the full free agency thing, I only got partial agency. It seems like no matter what I do, or how rebellious I get there is either something in the way of fulfilling said act or ,something goes terribly wrong after I do things I'm not supposed to.With the help of some of the coolest missionaries ever, I have finally come to the decision there is no use fighting anymore, because in the end I'm only hurting myself. Plus I have a ridiculously intense Patriarchal blessing to fulfill ;).

 Speaking of cool missionaries, one of them I am convinced is my twin. We are 99% the same person, the main difference is our genders, it is kind of creepy if I'm being totally honest. It is also somehow satisfying haha.

Slightly church related (mostly because this is the lesson we had on Sunday), Family History! My birth mom has been on a kick recently and it inspired me to want to do more, specifically on my birth dad's side. I was talking to my mom about it and she told me some really cool news, if you are a member of the church you get a free account on ancestry.com! All you need is a family search account that you can link up to it, and if you already have an LDS account then you have a family search account! If not, it is super easy, all you need is your record number! :) So, while doing all this family history stuff I have traced my birth dad's paternal line to the 1600's and everyone was from Norway, like an insane amount of Norwegians in my family! So basically I really am Anna from 'Frozen' ;P.

What else, hmmm well, I only have roughly 2 months left here! It's kind of insane to think that I have been here for 10 months! While I do love it here, I am starting to feel the itch to be back state side. I am mostly ready to start being a full fledged adult and starting at Weber with my best friend! I am also excited for what this next year will have for me, I feel like good things will be coming my way!

 So basically, that's really it, not a lot going on. Mostly me being cold and miserable. Mostly miserable because I despise being cold. So it is just a vicious cycle, really. Anyways, I'll try to be more up to date on these blog posts!

Until next time

<3

Rachel